01 july 2002
Naisip kong sulatin ang aking kaisipan ko sa wikang Pilipino dahil gusto kong masanay magsulat at magsalita ng ating sariling wika. Pagbalik ko sa ating bayan ay hindi naman ninyo ako kakausapin sa wikang dayuhan kundi sariling atin. Pasensya muna sa mga di nakakaintindi ng Pilipino. Gusto ko lang ipamahagi ang aking kaisipan sa wika natin. Oks lang ba sa inyo? Salamat ha?

02 july 2002
Matutulog muna ako. May naiisip lang ako pero di ko mailathala.

03 july 2002
Nagpatuloy ang pagbagsak ng ulan habang nakatanaw siya mula sa kanyang bintana. Pag umuulan, nalilinis ang kanyang puso't kaluluwa. Sana uulan ngayon.

04 july 2002
Filipino-American Friendship Day.
Natatandaan mo pa ba ito kaibigan? Siguro hindi na. Bakit hinugot na sa kalendaryong Pilipino ang holiday na ito? Ano ba ang dapat na patunayan ng Pilipino? Nangangahulugan ba itong walang saysay ang pagkakaibigan ng mga Amerikano at Pilipino? Noong Ika-4 ng Hulio 1946, naipamahagi sa atin ang kalayaan mula sa mga Amerikano. Binigyan tayo ng pagkakataong magsarili at magkaroon ng pamahalaang Pilipino. Ang aking ipinagtataka sa mahigit ng 50 taon ng ating kasarinlan ay di pa ganap ang ating kalayaan. Malamang na ito ay dulot ng impluensiya ng dayuhang dugong nanalaytay sa ating mga ugat. Ito'y tanging palaisipan sa akin kung kelan tayo makakaalpas sa pagkabilanggo ng ating pananaw ng tunay na kasarinlan.

05 july 2002
Malakas ang pagbuhos ng ulan. Nakalimutan kong isara ang aking bintana. Basa ang aking silid. Malakas ang hangin. Di ko alam inilipad pala ng bagyo ang aming bubungan. - Kwentong Ulan

Siyanga pala, ilang taon na ang nakakalipas habang ako ay nagbabakasyon ay naranasan ko ang pagbaha sa Maynila. Bumaha sa may Sampaloc sa amin ng Tito Al ko. Daan-daang mga sasakyan ang tumirik sa kahabaan ng EDSA. Maraming mga pasahero ang inabutan ng madaling araw ng pagdating sa kani-kanilang tahanan. Ang mga iba ay naglakad na lamang pauwi. Ang tindi talaga ng buhay sa Maynila kapag tag-ulan 'no? Sana bigyang pansin ng pamahalaan at ang mga mamamayan ang kalinisan ng mga daluyan ng tubig-baha para sa ganun ay maiwasan ang mga di kanais-nais na pangyayari dulot ng pagbaha sa Maynila.

06 july 2002
He thought of her before he closed his eyes in the dark of the night. He whispered to the wind, "With high regards, I remain yours." Far from his arms' reach, they are bridged by their whispers brought by the wind. Eyes that never met, have seen beyond sight. Hearts that beat, heard without listening. One day, he would wake up and together they meet with open arms. This is fate.

07 july 2002
'Some people always have to be doing battle with someone, sometimes even with themselves, battling with their own lives. So they begin to create a kind of play in their head, and they write the script based on their frustrations." -By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho

08 july 2002
"When you are content to be yourself and don't compare or compete everybody will respect you." -Lao Tzu

09 july 2002
"Don't let life discourage you; everyone who has got where he is had to begin where he was." -Richard L. Evans

10 july 2002
"Today I learned that what is valuable is not what I have in my life but who I have in my life. Thanks for being part of it. Take care." - Thoughts from afar.

11 july 2002
Be empowered by your faith in Him. He shall lay His hands upon you and you shall be healed. Mom you shall live and we will go through this in faith in the loving grace of our Almighty God. Pinag-usapan natin kanina na gusto mong makilala siya. Alam po ninyo, darating din siya sa naitakdang panahon at makakadaupang palad ninyo. Dad, please be by her side. I know you're now on the other side but you're presence lingers on.

12 july 2002
Today is Mom's surgery.

13 july 2002
Mom is home from hospital. Watched home videos.

14 july 2002
I joined my best friend in his son's birthday party at the beach. I felt relieved to see the sunset after work. Watching the kids wade in the water is a peaceful sight.

15 july 2002
I'm in Kauai.

16 july 2002
"To be happy, don't do whatever you like, instead like whatever you do. Happiness comes not from having much to live on, but from having much to live for." - Thoughts from afar.

"Peter pan said, think of a happy thought so you can fly...Guess what? You make me fly. Thanks for being a friend". - Thoughts from afar.

17 july 2002
Your presence fills my room though you're afar. Peter Pan is really right, I fly because of the thought of you. A presence that I long, An essence that I feel, Without you, all is obsolescence.

18 july 2002
I decided to watch the movie Lilo and Stitch after work. The movie is set up in Kauai. What a coincidence I'm here also in Kauai. Did you know what I learned in Kauai? It's about ohana. Ohana means family.

19 july 2002
The evening breeze comes into my room like the very presence that comes from afar. Whispers of sweetness remain in the air...

23 july 2002
Malaking pasasalamat sa mga taong tumatangkilik sa aking pamamalagi dito sa Kauai. Tinanggap nila akong kapamilya nila. Ako'y nasisiyahan sa pagbubukas nila ng kanilang tahanan at kaisipan para sa akin. Malayo mang dako ang aking pinanggalingan ay itinuturing nila akong isa sa kanila. Eto ang pagkakaiba ng pook na aking pinanggalingan. Siguro eto ay bunga ng mabagal na pagdaloy ng makinarya ng pagsulong at pag-unlad.

Nakapagbibigay sila sa akin ng ngiti at halakhak ng aking mga kaibigan dito. Minsan kapag pananghalian ay pinamamahagian nila ako ng pagkain kasi sandwich lang ang baon ko. Sabi nila, 'Para sa Kano lang yan.' Sagot ko nama'y, 'Pasensiya na eto ang pinakamabilis na pagkaing naisipan kong ihanda.' Remember the word 'fast food.' Sabay silang nagtawanan. Seriously, alam ko namang magluto. Naalala niyo ba yung TV show na Wok With Yan? Yan ako!

Mayumi.
Isang halik aking pinakawalan sa hangin nawa ito'y kanyang dalhin sa iyong mga labi. Sa haba ng panahong iyong pagkawalay, hindi ko malaman kung saan kita hahanapin. Pero dinala ka ng hanging amihan. Binigyan mo ng kulay ang aking mundo. Sana dalawa tayong tatanaw sa pagsikat ng araw mula ngayon...

24 july 2002
In evolution systems tend to develop up to the limit of their adaptive competence.
- Peter Principle

26 july 2002
My sister-in-law and nephew's last day on Maui. The whole family spent time on the beach. It was indeed a family affair. I wish Dad is here with us but he is happy where he is now. I wish it's every week we do this but the essence of a harmonious family fills the air even without the presence of the others. Ohana means family, and family means no one is left behind.

At the airport, our eyes were watery. Saying goodbye is one of the hardest thing to do...life goes on in our family. Have a safe trip.

27 july 2002
I woke up to an empty room. I realized my wondeful nephew has already left for home. He was just with me yesterday on my lap. Being with his uncles and grandma, he have enjoyed their presence with their tender loving care. His mother is blessed with an angel. By the way, are three kids enough for you? It's just a thought.

28 july 2002
I'm back to my office again. There's a sealed envelope on my desk. It's a book written by a friend of mine. She signed it and left it for me. I'm so glad that she believes in my dreams. When you believe in dreams, nothing stops you from achieving them. Just believe. It's called faith.

29 july 2002
There is the earth and there is the heavens. I wonder how they can meet one day and gaze upon the beauty of the universe.

30 july 2002
Even though you may not be able to see it now, I just wanted to tell you that you are a tapestry in progress, a masterpiece unfolding. You are worthy. You are deserving. You are loved...even when it doesn't feel like it. Believe it and be patient. Your dreams will happen, and someday you will look back on this moment in time and understand the meaning of this place you are in now as it, too, adds depth, dimension and form to the work of art...that is YOU!
-Aina's Song

31 july 2002

Don't Turn Off The Lights
by Enrique Iglesias

I don't have to tell you
What this is all about
Cause baby half the fun
Is in us figuring it all out

So why you gotta ask me
What I'm doing now
Cause I don't like to question
What I still haven't found

[CHORUS]
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be in the dark tonight
Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if what I'm doing is right
So Don't turn off the lights
So Don't turn off the lights

So tell me how we're gonna get there
It's hard to even try
But if we move together
We'll end up on the same side

[CHORUS]

If you could know what I'm feeling
Would you run and where would you go
If you want to Know what I'm thinking
Then just turn on the lights and you'll know

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