kahapon. Nagugunita ang alaalang kaasam-asam. Ba't inilayo ang magandang
kahapon? Di ba't ito'y isang pagharap sa ngayon at kinabukasan?
your heart. Rewrite with your head.'
- William Forrester
madness of the world is madness in the eyes of God." To be consistent
is always to wear a tie that matches one's socks. It is to have the same
opinions tomorrow as one has today.
And the movement of
the planet? Where is it? So long as you do no harm to another, change
your opinion once in a while. Contradict yourself without being embarrassed.
This is your right. It doesn't matter what others think--because that's
what they will think, in any case. So, relax. Let the universe move about.
Discover the joy of surprising your self. 'God selected the crazy things
on the earth so as to embarrass the wise men,' said St. Paul.
-Paulo Coelho, Author of Maktub
says: "If you are traveling the road of your dreams, be committed
to it. Do not leave an open door to be used as an excuse such as, 'Well,
this isn't exactly what I wanted.' Therein are contained the seeds of
defeat. "Walk your path. Even if your steps have to be uncertain,
even if you know that you could be doing it better. If you accept your
possibilities in the present, there is no doubt that you will improve
in the future. But if you deny that you have limitations, you will never
get rid of them. "Confront your path with courage and don't be afraid
of the criticism of others. And, above all, don't allow yourself to become
paralyzed by self-criticism. "God will be with you on your sleepless
nights, and will dry your tears with His love. God is for the valiant."
-Paulo Coelho, Author of Maktub
Serendipity at last when my kumpad invited me in for
dinner at their home. I have 'believed' in this. I don't know if I still
have to keep on believing. Wherever you are, will we find ourselves back
to each other? I love you.
is probably the most superstitious person in the world. He/she is
very religious and believes in every dogma infused into his/her consciousness.
What causes misfortunes? Is there logic behind these superstitions? A
belief in these triggers the supernatural entities to make them happen.
Even there is a God, there lies a doubt when faith has been superseded
There are universal
laws out there where logic is no longer the common denominator. I try
to understand humanity. What makes us human? How can we attain divinity?
In every religion, we were brought to believe what is taught by our religious
leaders. As free moral agents, we were given the gift of freewill. Do
you remember the tree of the knowledge of good and evil?
How do you live each
day? Live a day at a time. Remember, everything that happens in your lifetime
is all predetermined. Why do I say this? I don't know. It is written in
the Scriptures, God knows you before you were even born, thus you have
existed in a previous lifetime. Perhaps in this lifetime, you're soulmate
wasn't fortunate to find you, so she lives and dies until she finds you.
That's the idea of leaping from one lifetime to another. Never lose hope,
life is recyclable. You'll do better in your next lifetime maybe you become
a queenbee and lead a colony of worker bees and drones. At least you fulfilled
your destiny to rule in your own kingdom.
ran out of gas on my way home. Thank God I was able to reach home. What
a day isn't it? Since the fuel gauge is out of whack, it's hard to predict
the next time to fill gas. Life is unpredictable. Surprises abound.
are in the dark, remember when you light up you are no longer in the dark.
Perfect for a cigarette ad. Seriously, when one is entangled with confusion,
one seeks guidance. One would need someone's hand to give a sense of direction.
Do you know what you really want in life? Basically, our inner selves
are persons, too. When they are confused it affects our lives in the physical
plane. When our physical and spiritual selves merge into one we would
no longer feel the void in between these two planes. We call this completion.
I bring you a smile to complete your day. In the mirror I see the reflection
of a bright tomorrow. Each day, I feel blessed to know how much your presence
have enriched me. A presence that I don't see yet I feel. In this life,
I shall live to make you live. For each word you say are rich in life.
I may be alone as the eyes could see now, deep in my heart and soul your
presence fills me.
I am preparing for
my trip to Kauai. I find this place a place of refuge. It's a fun filled
week ahead. I will be able to work with my new friends who became part
of my ohana. I am very thankful to God for blessing me. The wonders
of nature soothes me and the friends around me. Kauai, here I come.
Before leaving for
Kauai, I went to the pet shop and looked for accessories for my aquarium
project. I stayed there for a while as I waited on my friend for lunch.
He would be dropping me off to the airport. I inherited a 29-gallon tank
from my granduncle. I guess they didn't have the right fish in the tank
and given it up. Hmmm, how about an arowana a friend opined. And if I
get one, what would I name it? Maybe Lianala, it sounds Hawaiian.
Once I get back home, I'll finalize my selection.
My barkada arrived
and we had lunch. I have so many appointments today but I have to cancel
due to this trip. I'll get back to them when I get back. I need a break
there in Kauai. New sights and sounds. I've seen them all already. I stayed
at my friend's house before he dropped me off at the airport. I got to
rest there and play some Microsoft Xbox games. I played 007, Tony Hawk,
Burnout. I loved the Burnout game because it's a car racing game. It takes
you in real time racing. It would improve my driving skills and it's true.
Now I can drive Manila's driveways.
My friend dropped
me off at the airport. Kauai here I come. I have a connecting flight to
Honolulu. I called some friends there and texted friends, too. I love
my GSM phone. It rocks. Problema nga lang, walang signal sa Kauai. Aaaargh!
Anyway, it took two hours of travel to Kauai. I finally arrived in Lihue
and got my beat up rental car. Upgrade next time, okey! It's raining and
I hardly see the road at night. My vision turned into a viewing screen
of the Xbox game Burnout. Hahahaha. Pards, okey ba? Wala sa simulation
yan. I almost got lost. I thought I went off course. Muntik ko ng binaliktad
ang damit ko para di ako maligaw. Yan daw ang sabi ng mga damatands. Anyway,
I found my destination and have a good night's sleep. Good night.
Kauai. The weather is great today unlike last night. I hope the weather
is accommodating during my tour of duty. I was greeted by the smiles of
the people I work with. I feel the ohana ambiance. Today was a busy day
for me as always. After work, I decided to go into the city of Lihue,
a 30-minute drive off Poipu, to check my text messages. Surprisingly,
I have received lotsa messages and a voicemail, too. Hmmm. It's a voice
from afar, soothing and calming. It's bliss. My thumb is getting numb
as I sent text messages to my friends pero enjoy naman. It's like I'm
back in Manila again, the text capital of the world. A few minutes later,
I went to the theater and watched Star Wars E2 Attack of the Clones. I
haven't watched the classic Star Wars movies so I haven't learned to appreciate
the movie. Perhaps, I'll add this in my collection. A part of the movie
that made me laugh so bad was Yoda's fight scene with Count Dukoo. You
see him move like lightning and all you see is the light sword (is this
correct?) where in fact he moves like a snail with his cane most of the
time. At least, this fed the fans' curiosity 'what if Yoda is seen fighting?'
Learn from this, don't underestimate the little people. May kasabihan
tayo, 'Ang munting butil ng buhangin ay nakakapuwing.' May
the force be with you...but beware of the dark side of the force.
After the movie, I
dropped in BK to have dinner. There's a force that pulled me to dine in
and I followed. Indeed, it was a surprise. A couple of my friends are
dining there and I joined them and of course nagchikahan. It was getting
late so we parted ways. I went back to my place and enjoyed the night's
company of the voice. Thank you.
a place in Kauai called Lawai Garden. It's a Japanese garden where it
is believed to be a mystical place where the Japanese early immigrants
go there and meditate. I've asked where this garden is and nobody knows
where it is. I read about it in Aloha Airlines inflight magazine.
Philippine flag rise in great glory as the nation celebrates its independence
day. In this trying times, the Philippines has been on its feet and will
be a proud example of a nation that is willing to fight for freedom. Mabuhay
ang Pilipinas! Mabuhay ang sambayanang Pilipino! Ako ay Pilipino!
It was one
fine day having lunch with the great people I work with in Kauai. I called
the sage and we talked stories about Maui and her adventures back home.
She was on a visit to her family for a long time. I missed her so much.
She called me before I left for the Garden Isle but missed me. I can't
wait to see the sage again where we can just see things in a different
light. Life is blessed when good friends are near (even far as long as
technology breaks that barrier of distance).
I went to Lihue and went to a saimin house called Hamura's with a friend
of mine. We talked stories and telling me the wonderful relationship with
family. Harmonious and filled with joy.
I remember you with your song during a moonlit night and I still hear
it at this very moment. Dad, I just want to let you know how much you
have enriched my life. You're strength and perseverance in the days of
your life will serve as beacon. In your last days, we were together and
I never knew of your passing. I'm blessed with the life you've given me.
You have lived well. I wish you are still in this plain of existence that
you would meet her. She would be happy to see the father of a great son.
Apo bulan sadi ngato
Makitkitak ni San Pedro a mammallot
Ta innak San Fernando
Ta agsidaak ti adobo
Day to all the fathers in the world. The greatest Father who art in heaven
made the universe where we belong. We are His sons and daughters made
in His likeness. To my father, you are the best a son could have for a
father after our Father.
I think of you and the very thought of you makes me move on with my journey.
Eons have passed and I don't know why the thought of you flies by. Could
you be the pearls in the sea?
What is the Other?
Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
Man runs into an old
friend who had somehow never been able to make it in life. "I should
give him some money," he thinks. But instead he learns that his old
friend has grown rich and is actually seeking him out to repay the debts
he had run up over the years.
They go to a bar they
used to frequent together, and the friend buys drinks for everyone there.
When they ask him how he became so successful, he answers that until only
a few days ago, he had been living the role of the "Other."
"What is the
Other?" they ask.
"The Other is
the one who taught me what I should be like, but not what I am. The Other
believes that is is our obligation to spend our entire life thinking about
how to get our hands as much money as possibe so that we will not die
of hunger when we are old. So we think so much about money and our plans
of acquiring it that we discover we are alive only when our days on earth
are practically done. And then it's too late.
"And you? Who
"I am just like
everyone else who listens to their heart: a person who is enchanted by
the mystery of life. Who is open to miracles, who experiences joy and
enthusiasm for what they do. It's just that the Other, afraid of disappointment,
kept me from taking action."
"Bu there is
suffering in life," one of the listeners said.
"And there are
defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles
in the struggle for yours dreams that to be defeated without ever even
knowing what you're fighting for."
another listener asked.
it. When I learned this, I resolved to become the person I had always
wanted to be. The Other stood there in the corner of my room, watching
me, but I will never let the Other into myself again--even though it has
already tried to frighten, warning me that it's risky not to think about
"From the moment
that I ousted the Other from my life, the Divine Energy began to perform
Beth (extreme right) with friends.
I've learned in the
wee hours about the untimely passing of Beth, a very close friend of mine.
I was trying to catch my sleep. Beth and I shared memories in my elementary
school in the barrio. She is the one who taught me to excel. She is in
the top of our class while I go up and down the ranks. I have worked my
way up there second to her when we graduated. Every time I visit in the
summer, we usually get together with our other friends and having a picnic
in the beach. We talk stories about our own lives. We have a great bond
I remember in March
1984 after we graduated, she came by to my house and she gave me a greeting
card wishing me well in getting into high school and my journey in life.
She left for Manila and studied there and in my 1992 summer visit, I saw
her again in our class reunion. Beth was there again when Dad died last
year. That's how close she is to me.
Beth, may you rest
in peace. You are truly a friend. Why didn't you wait for my wedding day
as you said you would come? Beth, in behalf of our friends, let me say
you have lived life well. Be at peace.We love you.
I went to Honolulu to Kaiser Clinic in Moanalua Valley for her test. I
hope and pray there's nothing wrong. It was surprising to see my former
boss and her son who was also a colleague at the plane and then at the
clinic. She told my mother good things about me. It was like a filling
for an empty manapua (siopao). Without the filling, a manapua is tasteless.
That made my day. When we were working together, we are like family...and
then one day came the destroyer. Harmony was disrupted and life in the
community was never the same again. We were dispersed in the far reaches
of the island.
Mom and I never have
a chance to visit the marketplace in Chinatown. We didn't have enough
time so we have to get the earliest flight back to Maui. It was a great
Let me greet you a happy birthday. A year ago you were
in limbo. A year later you have found yourself. I've learned a lot from
you during my summer visit. I got drunk by your wine and I woke up in
a world of great delight. Let me thank you for the moment we shared now
that you have finally returned to where you were before I came. I've seen
those teardrops fall upon your cheeks, when you are so willing to be a
fool to fight for that love and perhaps now he would acknowledge that
sincerity of your desire to have him for the rest of your life. Wish me
well on my journey. Thank you again and now I am able to say 'Good bye.'
[Ref. Nov 23-25, 2001]
somebody by depeche mode time: 2315H
I met for lunch at a Japanese resto in Kahului. After lunch we went to
Office Max for him to buy a printer and later we went to the pet shop
for my aquarium supply. I set up his printer while he set up my aquarium
pump/filter. In a week, we would be filling in the aquarium with fish,
In the evening, I
met up with my friend for dinner at the Maui Marketplace. I congratulated
him for getting hired in our company. God is good. Everything has its
own season. We were looking for a pool table but there's nothing to be
found at the sports shop. O, well, I'm beginning to like this game because
it is a popular pastime activity. I want to be good at this game. My brother
wants to buy one kasi. I want to learn how to rollerblade, perhaps I can
be a good hockey player. Hahaha. Anyway, good night people.
Clues to wisdom
of living are sometimes found in candy wrappers. I just want to
let you know that eating candy promotes tooth decay. What the heck!
I could make my luck in one of them candy wrappers.
I flew to
Honolulu today on a working visit. I was fortunate to fly with my friend
on the same flight to and from Honolulu. I took a shuttle to Waikiki where
I'll be working on my 2-day stay. The last time I was here, Waikiki was
a ghost town due to the 9/11 event. It's great to be back again. Waikiki
is the tourist center of the island of Oahu. It's really great here at
night where you can see everyone walking in the street and also watch
those sidewalk shows. I wish you are here so I can show you the beauty
of Waikiki perhaps someday when the universe conspires to make it happen.
I walked two miles (about 3 km) to Ala Moana Center to meet my friend
and his wife for lunch. We toured outside Waikiki visiting Sea Life Park.
I love to see the dolphins, the seals, and the penguins there. We dropped
by the Pali Lookout on our way to Wahiawa to meet with the relatives of
my friend's wife. We left for Maui thereafter. Overall, my visit in Honolulu
was exciting. My overseer was happy to see me again and wished me well
in my career. Where I want to go today depends on the circumstances that
surround me. Will you play a part in this? Yes, you do.
She is beyond
the open sea yet I could listen the murmur of the brook, her heart beating.
to the wind and hear no echoes. When I hear one, it is you.
Be of strength
in your moment of weakness. You are allowed suffering to become strong.
Your children are your source of strength. Your spouse have passed away
but he lives on to make sure you walk along the path. Adversities in life
will keep you standing up. In you is the greatness of being a mother to
a child. Live on and be well!
your last night. Malou texted me and she is there with you together with
our other friends. I wish I could be there with you before you meet with
your Creator. I offer a prayer to your family and your safe transit to
the other side.
me in welcoming Lianala to our household. She's a real beauty as
she glide in the aquarium. Lianala is a silver arowana native to the waters
of the Amazon. Arowanas are surface swimmers and are known to be territorial.
They can eat crickets, roaches, small fishes. I wish I could add some
other fishes but they could fall prey to the arowana..
Let me personally
thank Domy for helping me out in the science of the aquarium today. Now,
I am an aquarist. Throughout the evening, I watched Lianala to get used
to her new home. I gave her three catfishes as companions so she won't
be alone. My mother and brother welcomed Lianala's presence in our home.
about switching from PC platform (Windows) to the Apple's
Powermac G4. The hardware requirements for my filmmaking interest
is taking a toll on my PC hardware. I realized it is more expensive on
the PC side. The G4 is ready for editing raw footages. Just plug in your
videocam and start editing.
I have written my
script for a one minute short film and it was approved by our local community
TV station. Last year, I took footage of my travels to the Philippines
and unfortunately my videocam was stolen at the airport. Ang sagwa 'no?
Sayang kasi I was featuring the pyramid shaped chapel designed by a renowned
architect sa Malaybalay City in Bukidnon.
Two nights ago, a
videographer friend of mine came to my design studio for me to tutor him
on Adobe Premiere on his iMac machine. I liked the new Mac OS X. It's
so beautiful but it's hard for me to part ways between me and my PCs whom
I named individually. I don't have a name for my future Powermac G4 yet
but surely, it is of royal descent like the others. Maybe Kalantiaw, one
of the ten datus of Borneo who landed in Panay.
In the year 2006 is
the 100th anniversary of the first wave of Filipino migration to Hawaii.
I wish to write a screenplay or maybe a stageplay depicting this historical
migration of Filipinos in Hawaii to cultivate the vast sugar cane fields
of Hawaii. My Dad migrated 29 years later. I want to pay tribute to the
sacadas who made the Hawaii we have today.
I just want
to let you know, I'm off to sleep now. Good night.